Sotiris Dimitriou: Man from Bulgaria

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Sotiris Dimitriou

 

Man from Bulgaria

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02-IotaT’S THIS WHORE’S FAULT. Hers and hers only. If only you knew what she says behind your back. She’s mean and she has the devil inside her. Bye now, bye. I’m hanging up because she’s coming.”

“On the phone again, my dear Rita? Where were you calling this time?”

         “Oh, shut the fuck up, you crazy woman! To my boyfriend, to whomever I want. I’ve got ears, I’ve got mouth. Ain’t I allowed to call? I’ve got pussy. Ain’t I allowed to fuck? Go to hell, you old bitch. You shouldn’t have borne me.”

         She was a reddish girl, around 18 years of age, and very fat. There were folds in her belly and neck because of this.

         Her eyes, two small shiny little holes, lost in the swollen, barely outlined face and the voice was shrill, penetrating. She was eating the whole day and at nights she would get up every once in a while and open the fridge or the cupboard, with her eyes closed, looking for something to eat. Whatever that was. As long as it was edible.

         She would place her in an asylum, but she pitied her – she was her blood – and on the other hand, only God knows what she would have done in there. She was a beast. Even when she was breastfeeding, she would pull and bite her nipples. She never cast a peaceful eye on her. In several occasions, when she tried to hug her, intentionally using a funny excuse, she would punch her on her belly and below and when her breasts started swelling, even without a provocation, she would shout all kinds of dirty words at her.

         Where did she learn those things? They would rarely go out together. Growing up, she would find more sophisticated ways to torture her. She wouldn’t wear a tampon in her period so as for the underwear to moist in blood, she would shit herself and make her wash, whispering in frenzy:

         “It was an accident. As if I did it on purpose? You shouldn’t have borne me, you old bitch. You shouldn’t have spread your thighs for the dick of that punk. He had better put a viper in your hole. Won’t I find him one day? I will cut his dick with my teeth.”

         “The parents’ sins torture the children. You think I don’t know?”

         When they were going out on a visit in the neighbourhood, she would hug the men tightly, laughing and sighing at the same time, she would kiss them hard on the cheeks, and look, pretending to act childishly, for the lips.

         She started going out by herself, in a small radius around the house, and was showing her breasts and her genitals to men.

         One Sunday, after the church, she locked herself in her room and started shouting:

         “Fuck me hard, my man. Fuck me hard. Oh! Wow!

         “Wow! What a big dick you have, baby!”

         Her mother was scared, because several men realized what she was doing and lusted after her strolling around the house.

         “What if she let someone in,” she thought.

         She begged her to open the door. In the end, she comes out naked and throws a fat bloody torch on her mother’s face.

         “Here, you bitch. My first fucker. Put it in your own cunt as well. But what do you care? You fuck like a bitch when you go out. Where do you go, bitch? Shopping only?”

         Her mother burst into tears and that made her mad.

         “Shut up. Don’t even say a word. Now, you care? Shut up or I’ll beat the shit out of you.”

         Just then she started the thing with the telephone. She was calling everyone they knew and was saying a bunch of things about her mother. She was pressing people. Always with the phone receiver in hand.

         The doctors would always say the same thing. To keep her close, to show her love, to take her out and if it is possible to take her out on trips. She would benefit from all these.

         In the beginning, she did not want to, but when one of her aunts told her, “come on, Rita.You will find your groom. In those travels it is easier” her life became only travels and search for a groom.

         She even changed behaviour somehow in the hope of finding a man. She would dust the floor a bit, she even washed the dishes every now and then. Thus, her relieved mother, was struggling to save money and they travelled a lot. She had some fun as well.

        At first, they chose close destinations. Aegina, Loutraki, Evia. Then, by joining a group, a bit further. Where they roamed, whenever she found someone she liked, she would approach him and pointing with her finger, she would shout, “There, you bitch, him.”

         In the first few times, she was able to trick her by saying: “What? Just like that? Let’s go back, and we’ll see.”

         “Let’s go abroad. The men there are not as cunning as they are here.”

         The days passed and she started getting impatient and wild.

         At nighs, she would caress her genitals, moaning rhythmically for a long time, not because of pleasure, but to spite her mother.

         Until one day, she lashed at her and grabbed her by the throat.

         “When are you going to find me a groom, you culprit? You’ re trying to trick me, right?”

         “My daughter, my little daughter. Don’t. Abroad. We’ll go abroad. To Bulgaria.”

         “To Bulgaria? It sounded real and beautiful. She believed deeply that there her love awaits. And the whole day she would sing in the tune of folk songs, “My Bulgarian, My Bulgarian.”

         On the phone, in the neighbourhood and the passers-by, she had nothing to say but “My Bulgarian.”

         The long awaited hour finally came. Her mother was shivering during the whole trip. She couldn’t hold her anymore. The moment they set foot on Bulgaria, she started pointing and crying. “Him, him.”

         She tried to trick her again by saying that “here it can’t be done right away, they have a different system, we have to go to the State to agree upon it.”

         She had to fight to bring her back, with the promise she had already talked about someone she liked, they had agreed and when his passpost was ready he would come to Greece.

         She continued in the same tune. She would paraphrase well known folk songs:

         My history, my sin

         My Bulgarian worship

         I see you in my dreams

         and I fart my sorrow.

         She kept cleaning the house to make it presentable, she bought cosmetics and spent time in front of the mirror.

     The time was passing and she gradually let go. She neither spoke nor moved from the bed. Her mother was filled with sweet expectations. “My God, I wish she stayed like that.”

         Until one night, she burst stark naked into her room, holding her cunt.

         “Where is the Bulgarian, you bitch? What am I going to do with it?”

         The mother was startled and scared and she became furious.

         “Which groom are you waiting for, you demon? Who, you Satan? What are you going to do with him? To wash your hair? To feed you? To put your knickers on? Men want to take them off, you creep, not to put them on. Like that beast that spawned you and disappeared. But it was a good decision, you monster, very good. And I hope they find him, Lord, with his tongue bitten and his mouth full of maggots. You ruined my life. One breath, you bitch. One breath and I will die. How is breath, you bitch? You’re sick.”

         She couldn’t speak no more, she got spasms and was making odd sounds like sucking her saliva.

         “You clipple, slurp. Mathouse, slurp.”

         “So, you got him in your brain. I’ll show you,” the daughter says in a mild sweet voice.

         She went out of the room and when she returned she was holding a fat bottle full of olive oil and started beating her on the head with it. The bottle broke, but she kept crashing her head with what was left, until her face became unrecognizable.

         She then covered her feet so as not to feel cold, she sat beside her and stuck her greasy fingers into her cranium, looking for the brain. Whenever she found a piece of the Bulgarian, she chewed it, and cursed her mother, calling her a whore and a liar.

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Source: A child in Thessaloniki, short stories, Kedros editions, Athens, 1989.

 

Sotiris Dimitriou (Povla, Thesprotia, 1955). He is a fiction writer. His first book was Gropings, poems (1985), his most recent book was Like scarce water, fiction (2010).

 

Translated from the greek by

Vassilis Manoussakis (Athens, 1972). Poet, short-story writer, translator. He studied English Language and Literature. He currently teaches at the University of Peloponnese in Kalamata.

 

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Σωτήρης Δημητρίου: Θὰ σὲ σκοτώσω

 

 

Σωτήρης Δημητρίου

 

Θὰ σὲ σκοτώσω

 

ΥΤΟΣ ΠΟΥ ΕΙΠΕ νὰ σὲ φυ­λά­ει ὁ Θε­ὸς ἀ­π’ τὴν κα­κιὰ τὴν ὥ­ρα κά­τι βα­ρὺ θὰ ἔ­πα­θε, ὅ­πως ἔ­πα­θα κι ἐ­γώ.

Τό­τε δού­λευ­α σ’ ἕ­να μα­γα­ζὶ γκαρ­σόν. Τὴ νύ­χτα. Τέρ­μα Ἱπ­πο­κρά­τους ἦ­ταν τὸ μα­γα­ζί.

       Δὲν εἶ­χα πα­ρά­πο­νο ἀ­π’ τὸ ἀ­φεν­τι­κὸ οὔ­τε κι ἀ­πὸ τοὺς πε­λά­τες. Ὁ μά­γει­ρας ὅ­μως ἀ­πὸ τὴν πρώ­τη ὥ­ρα δὲν μὲ χώ­νε­ψε. Κά­νε αὐ­τό, κά­νε τ’­ἄλ­λο συ­νε­χῶς νὰ μὴν πά­ρω ἀ­νά­σα οὔ­τε μιὰ στιγ­μή.

       Δὲν μὲ ἔ­νοια­ζε ἡ δου­λειά, ἦ­ταν ποὺ εἶ­χε τὸ μά­τι συ­νε­χῶς ἀ­πά­νω μου σὰν κα­κὸ σκυ­λί. Μὲ τ’ ὄ­νο­μα δὲν μ’ ἔ­λε­γε πο­τέ. Ἄν­τε ρὲ βλά­χο καὶ ἄν­τε ρὲ βλά­χο, γα­μῶ τὴν Ἀλ­βα­νί­α σας, μοῦ ἔ­λε­γε.

       Μοῦ ἔ­γι­νε ἄγ­χος. Πή­γαι­να στὸ σπί­τι νὰ κοι­μη­θῶ καὶ δὲν μοῦ κόλ­λα­γε ὕ­πνος.

       Με­ρι­κὲς φο­ρὲς πῆ­γα νὰ τὸν καλ­μά­ρω μὲ τὸν τρό­πο μου καὶ γέ­λα­γε πα­ρά­ξε­να.

       Τό­τε ἀρ­ρώ­στη­σα μέ­σα μου. Ἔ­ψα­χνα τρό­πο νὰ βρῶ νὰ τὸν σκο­τώ­σω.

       Ἕ­να βρά­δυ μὲ ἔ­φε­ρε στὸ ἀ­προ­χώ­ρη­το. Σκό­λα­σα, ἔ­φυ­γα ἀπ’ τὸ μα­γα­ζὶ καὶ εἶ­δα τὸ μά­τι του πά­νω μου σὰν νὰ μὴν ὑ­πῆρ­χα, σὰν νὰ ἤ­μουν ἕ­να σί­χα­μα.

       Τρά­βη­ξα γιὰ ἕ­ναν φί­λο μου ποὺ ἔ­με­νε στὴν Δάφ­νη. Ἔ­βρε­χε ἀ­στα­μά­τη­τα.

       Τέρ­μα Ἱπ­πο­κρά­τους κα­τό­πιν μέ­χρι τὸ Σύν­ταγ­μα πή­γαι­να ὅ­λο στὴ μέ­ση του δρό­μου θο­λός, τρε­λα­μέ­νος. Ὅ­λο μὲ μού­τζω­ναν οἱ ὁ­δη­γοὶ καὶ μοῦ φώ­να­ζαν.

      Ἔ­φτα­σα στὸ Σύν­ταγ­μα, πε­ρί­με­να στὴ στά­ση. Με­τὰ ἀ­πὸ ὥ­ρα στα­μα­τά­ει ἕ­να γι­ώ­τα χὶ μπρο­στά μου, μοῦ κορ­νά­ρει, καὶ ὁ ὁ­δη­γὸς ἄ­νοι­ξε τὴν πόρ­τα τοῦ συ­νο­δη­γοῦ. Ἔ­λα, μοῦ λέ­ει, ἔμ­πα. Ἦ­ταν ὁ μά­γει­ρας.

       Ἄλ­λος ἄν­θρω­πος. Μὲ ρώ­τα­γε για­τί εἶ­σαι μού­σκε­μα, πῶς δι­ά­ο­λο ἔ­γι­νες ἔ­τσι. Ἐ­γὼ τοῦ ’­λε­γα νὰ μὴν σὲ βγά­λω ἀπ΄τὸν δρό­μο. Μὴ σὲ νοιά­ζει, θὰ σὲ πά­ω ἐ­γὼ ὅ­που θές, ἔμ­πα. Ἄλ­λος ἄν­θρω­πος, ἀλ­λὰ ἐ­μέ­να τὸ μί­σος δὲν μοῦ εἶ­χε φύ­γει κα­θό­λου.

       Ἀρ­χὲς Βου­λι­αγ­μέ­νης πη­γαί­να­με σὰν τὶς χε­λῶ­νες. Σάβ­βα­το βρά­δυ εἶ­χε φρα­κά­ρει ἡ συγ­κοι­νω­νί­α.

       Ἐ­κεῖ ποὺ ἤ­μα­σταν στα­μα­τη­μέ­νοι τί μ΄ἐ­πί­α­σε γυρ­νά­ω καὶ τοῦ λέ­ω θέ­λω νὰ σὲ σκο­τώ­σω.

       Δὲν μοῦ εἶ­πε τί­πο­τα, τί καὶ πῶς. Μουγ­κά­θη­κε.

       Με­τὰ ἀ­πὸ κα­μιὰ πεν­τα­κο­σα­ριὰ μέ­τρα ποὺ πά­λι ἤ­μα­σταν στα­μα­τη­μέ­νοι ἄ­νοι­ξα τὴν πόρ­τα καὶ ἔ­φυ­γα.

 

 

Πη­γή: Πρώ­τη δη­μο­σί­ευ­ση.

 

Σω­τή­ρης Δη­μη­τρί­ου (Πό­βλα Θε­σπρω­τί­ας, 1955). Δι­ή­γη­μα, μυ­θι­στό­ρη­μα. Ζεῖ καὶ ἐρ­γά­ζε­ται στὴν Ἀ­θή­να. Βι­βλί­α: Ψη­λα­φί­σεις, ποι­ή­μα­τα (1985), Ντιά­λι­θ’ ἴμ, Χρι­στά­κη (1987), Ν’ ἀ­κού­ω κα­λὰ τ’ ὄ­νο­μά σου (1993) κ.α. Τε­λευ­ταῖ­ο του βι­βλί­ο: Ἡ σι­ω­πὴ τοῦ ξε­ρό­χορ­του (2011).

 

Σωτήρης Δημητρίου: Ἄντρας ἀπὸ τὴ Βουλγαρία

 

 

Σωτήρης Δημητρίου

 

Ἄντρας ἀπὸ τὴ Βουλγαρία

 

ΥΤΗ Η ΠΟΥΤΑΝΑ ΦΤΑΙΕΙ. Αὐ­τή, αὐ­τή. Νὰ ξέ­ρα­τε τί λέ­ει, πί­σω ἀπ’ τὴν πλά­τη σας. Εἶ­ναι κα­κιὰ κι ἔ­χει τὸ δι­ά­ο­λο μέ­σα της. Γειά σου μω­ρή, γειά σου. Σὲ κλεί­νω για­τί ἔρ­χε­ται.»

       «Πά­λι στὸ τη­λέ­φω­νο, βρὲ Ρι­τά­κι; Ποῦ τη­λε­φω­νοῦ­σες πά­λι;»

      «Σκά­σε, μω­ρή. Στὸν γκό­με­νό μου, ὅ­που θέ­λω. Νὰ μὴν τη­λε­φω­νή­σω; Αὐ­τὶ ἔ­χω, στό­μα ἔ­χω. Νὰ μὴ γα­μη­θῶ; Μου­νὶ ἔ­χω. Ἄι στὸ δι­ά­ο­λο, γριὰ που­τά­να. Ἂς μὴ μὲ γέν­να­γες.»

      Ἦ­ταν ἕ­να κα­τα­κόκ­κι­νο κο­ρί­τσι, γύ­ρω στὰ 18, χον­τρὸ ὅ­λο ξύγ­κι. Δί­πλω­νε ἡ κοι­λιὰ καὶ ὁ λαι­μὸς ἀ­π’ τὸ πά­χος.

      Τὰ μά­τια, δυ­ὸ μι­κρὲς ἀ­στρα­φτε­ρὲς τρυ­πί­τσες, χα­μέ­νες μέ­σα στὸ πρη­σμέ­νο, ὑ­πο­τυ­πω­δῶς δι­α­γραμ­μέ­νο πρό­σω­πο καὶ ἡ φω­νὴ τσι­ρι­χτή, δι­α­πε­ρα­στι­κή. Ὅ­λη μέ­ρα ἔ­τρω­γε καὶ τὶς νύ­χτες, ση­κω­νό­ταν κά­θε λί­γο καὶ μὲ κλει­στὰ μά­τια ἄ­νοι­γε τὸ ψυ­γεῖ­ο, τὴν ντου­λά­πα καὶ ψα­χού­λευ­ε. Ὅ,τι νά ’βρι­σκε. Ἀρ­κεῖ νὰ μα­σι­ό­ταν.

      Θὰ τὴν ἔ­βα­ζε σὲ ἵ­δρυ­μα, ἀλ­λὰ ἀ­π’ τὴ μιὰ με­ριὰ τὴν πό­να­γε —αἷ­μα της ἦ­ταν— κι ἀ­π’ τὴν ἄλ­λη, κύ­ριος οἵδε τί θά ‘­κανε ἐ­κεῖ μέ­σα. Ἦ­ταν θη­ρί­ο. Ἀ­π’ τὸ θή­λα­σμα ἀ­κό­μα, τῆς τρά­βα­γε καὶ τῆς δάγ­κα­νε τὰ βυ­ζιά. Ἤ­πιο βλέμ­μα δὲν τῆς ἔ­ρι­ξε πο­τέ. Κά­πο­τε ποὺ πή­γαι­νε νὰ τὴν ἀγ­κα­λιά­σει, μὲ ἐ­πί­τη­δες ἀ­στεῖ­ο κι ἀ­ναγ­κα­στι­κὸ τρό­πο, τὴ βά­ρα­γε μὲ μπου­νι­ὲς στὴν κοι­λιὰ καὶ χα­μη­λό­τε­ρα καὶ μό­λις ἄρ­χι­σαν νὰ φου­σκώ­νουν τὰ βυ­ζιά της, ἀ­κό­μα καὶ χω­ρὶς ἀ­φορ­μή, τῆς φώ­να­ζε τοῦ κό­σμου τὰ βρο­μό­λο­γα.

      Ποῦ τὰ ‘­μα­θε; Ἀ­φοῦ ἀ­π’ τὸ σπί­τι σπά­νια ἔ­βγαι­ναν μα­ζί. Με­γα­λώ­νον­τας, ἔ­βρι­σκε πιὸ φί­νους τρό­πους νὰ τὴ βα­σα­νί­ζει. Δὲ φό­ρα­γε ταμ­πὸν στὴν πε­ρί­ο­δο γιὰ νὰ πο­τι­στεῖ ἡ κυ­λότ­τα, τά ‘­κα­νε πά­νω της καὶ τὴν ἔ­βα­ζε νὰ τὴν πλέ­νει, λέ­γον­τας σι­γα­νὰ μὲ λύσ­σα:

      «Μοῦ ‘­φυ­γαν. Σά­μα τό ‘­θε­λα; Ἂς μὴ μ’ ἔ­κα­νες, γριὰ που­τά­να. Ἂς μὴ σή­κω­νες τὰ μπού­τια σου γιὰ τὴν ψω­λὴ ἐ­κεί­νου τοῦ ἀ­λή­τη. Δέ σοῦ ‘­βα­ζε κα­λύ­τε­ρα ὀ­χιὰ στὴν τρύ­πα σου; Δὲ θὰ τὸν πε­τύ­χω κά­πο­τε; Θὰ τοῦ τὴν κό­ψω μὲ τὰ δόν­τια, πέ­ρα πέ­ρα.

      »Ἁ­μαρ­τί­αι γο­νέ­ων παι­δεύ­ου­σι τέ­κνα. Νο­μί­ζεις δὲν τὰ ξέ­ρω;»

      Ὅ­ταν πή­γαι­ναν ἐ­πί­σκε­ψη στὴ γει­το­νιά, ἀγ­κά­λια­ζε σφι­χτά, μὲ γέ­λια κι ἀ­να­στε­ναγ­μοὺς τοὺς ἄν­τρες, τοὺς φί­λα­γε ρου­φη­χτὰ στὰ μά­γου­λα κι ἔ­ψα­χνε, μπεμ­πε­κίζον­τας τά­χα, γιὰ τὰ χεί­λη.

      Ἄρ­χι­σε νὰ βγαί­νει μό­νη της, σὲ μι­κρὴ ἀ­χτί­να ἀ­π’ τὸ σπί­τι καὶ νὰ δεί­χνει τὰ βυ­ζιὰ καὶ τὸ ὄρ­γα­νό της στοὺς ἀρ­σε­νι­κούς.

      Μιὰ Κυ­ρια­κὴ με­τὰ τὴ λει­τουρ­γί­α, κλει­δώ­θη­κε στὸ δω­μά­τιό της κι ἄρ­χι­σε νὰ κραυ­γά­ζει:

      «Σκί­σε με, καύ­λα μου. Σκί­σε με. Ἄι! Πώ! Πώ!

      Πώ! Τί που­τσά­ρα εἶ­ναι αὐ­τή, μω­ρό μου!»

      Τρό­μα­ξε ἡ μά­να της, για­τὶ τὴν εἶ­χαν πά­ρει χαμ­πά­ρι δι­ά­φο­ροι λι­γού­ρη­δες καὶ γυ­ρό­φερ­ναν τὸ σπί­τι.

      «Ἔ­χει γοῦ­στο νά ‘­μπα­σε κα­νέ­ναν», σκέ­φτη­κε.

      Τὴν πα­ρα­κά­λα­γε νὰ τῆς ἀ­νοί­ξει. Ἐν­τέ­λει βγαί­νει ξε­βρά­κω­τη καὶ πε­τά­ει στὰ μοῦ­τρα τῆς μά­νας της μιὰ μα­τω­μέ­νη χον­τρὴ λαμ­πά­δα.

      «Νά, μω­ρή, ὁ πρῶ­τος μου γα­μιάς. Βά­λ’ τον καὶ σὺ στὸ μου­νί σου. Ἀλ­λὰ τί ἀ­νάγ­κη ἔ­χεις; Γα­μι­έ­σαι σὰν σκύ­λα ὅ­ταν βγαί­νεις. Ποῦ πᾶς, μω­ρή, μό­νο γιὰ ψώ­νια;»

      Τὴν πῆ­ραν τὰ κλά­μα­τα τὴ μά­να της καὶ λύσ­σα­ξε.

      «Ἄ­χνα. Βού­λω­σ’ τό. Ἄ­χνα σοῦ λέ­ω. Σὲ πῆ­ρε τώ­ρα ὁ πό­νος; Σκά­σε μὴ σὲ πλα­κώ­σω στὸ ξύ­λο.»

      Κεί­νη τὴν ἐ­πο­χὴ ἄρ­χι­σε τὴ φάμ­πρι­κα μὲ τὸ τη­λέ­φω­νο. Τοὺς ἔ­παιρ­νε ὅ­λους ὅ­σους ξέ­ρα­νε κι ἔ­λε­γε γιὰ τὴ μά­να της χί­λια δυό. Ἔ­πε­σε στὸ λαι­μὸ τῶν ἀν­θρώ­πων. Συ­νε­χῶς μὲ τ’ ἀ­κου­στι­κὸ στὸ χέ­ρι.

      Οἱ για­τροὶ τὸ ἴ­διο τρο­πά­ρι. Νὰ τὴν ἔ­χει ἀ­πὸ κον­τά, νὰ τῆς δεί­χνει ἀ­γά­πη, νὰ τὴ βγά­ζει βόλ­τες κι ἂν εἶ­ναι δυ­να­τόν, νὰ τὴν πη­γαί­νει τα­ξι­δά­κια. Θὰ ὠ­φε­λη­θεῖ.

      Στὴν ἀρ­χὴ δὲν ἤ­θε­λε, ἀλ­λὰ ὅ­ταν τῆς εἶ­πε μιὰ θειά της, «ἔ­λα, βρὲ Ρί­τα. Θὰ γνω­ρί­σεις καὶ γαμ­πρό. Στὰ τα­ξί­δια εἶ­ναι πιὸ εὔ­κο­λο».

      Ἀ­πὸ κεῖ καὶ πέ­ρα ἡ ζω­ὴ της ἦ­ταν τα­ξί­δια καὶ γαμ­πρός.

      Κα­τὰ κά­ποι­ο τρό­πο, στὴν προσ­δο­κί­α γαμ­προῦ ἄλ­λα­ξε καὶ συμ­πε­ρι­φο­ρά. Ψευ­το­σκού­πι­ζε, ἔ­πλε­νε καὶ κά­να πιά­το. Ἔ­τσι κι ἡ μά­να της ἀ­να­κου­φι­σμέ­νη, κυ­ρί­ως ψυ­χο­λο­γι­κά, ἔ­βγα­ζε κι ἀ­π’ τὴ μύ­γα ξύγ­κι καὶ τα­ξί­δευ­αν τα­χτι­κά. Ξέ­δι­νε κι αὐ­τὴ κά­πως.

      Στὴν ἀρ­χὴ πή­γαι­ναν κον­τι­νά. Αἴ­γι­να, Λου­τρά­κι, Εὔ­βοι­α. Με­τὰ μὲ γκρούπ, πιὸ ἔ­ξω. Ἐ­κεῖ ποὺ γύ­ρι­ζαν, ὅ­ποι­ος τῆς γυ­ά­λι­ζε πή­γαι­νε κον­τά του, τὸν ἔ­δει­χνε μὲ τὸ δά­χτυ­λο καὶ τῆς φώ­να­ζε, «Νά, μω­ρή, αὐ­τόν».

      Στὴν ἀρ­χὴ τὴ γέ­λα­γε λέ­γον­τάς της: «Τί ὅ­που ὅ­που; Νὰ γυ­ρί­σου­με, νὰ δοῦ­με.

      »Νὰ πᾶ­με καὶ στὸ ἐ­ξω­τε­ρι­κό. Ἐ­κεῖ οἱ ἄν­τρες δὲν εἶ­ναι πο­νη­ροὶ ὅ­πως ἐ­δῶ».

      Πέρ­να­γε ὁ και­ρὸς κι ἄρ­χι­σε ν’ ἀ­δη­μο­νεῖ καὶ ν’ ἀ­γρι­εύ­ει.

      Τὶς νύ­χτες ἔ­τρι­βε τὰ ὄρ­γα­νά της, μουγ­γα­νί­ζον­τας ρυθ­μι­κά γιὰ πολ­λὴ ὥ­ρα, ὄ­χι ἀ­πὸ εὐ­χα­ρί­στη­ση, ἀλ­λὰ γιὰ νὰ νευ­ριά­σει τὴ μά­να της.

      Ὥ­σπου κά­ποι­α στιγ­μή, χί­μη­ξε νὰ τὴν ἁρ­πά­ξει ἀ­π’ τὸ λαι­μό.

      «Πό­τε θὰ μοῦ βρεῖς γαμ­πρό, μω­ρὴ ἔ­νο­χη; Μὲ γε­λᾶς μοῦ φαί­νε­ται, ἔ;»

      «Κο­ρού­λα μου, Κο­ρού­λα μου. Μή. Στὸ ἐ­ξω­τε­ρι­κό, Θὰ πᾶ­με στὸ ἐ­ξω­τε­ρι­κό. Στὴ Βουλ­γα­ρί­α.»

      «Στὴ Βουλ­γα­ρί­α; Τῆς χτύ­πη­σε ἀ­λη­θι­νὸ καὶ ὅ­μορ­φο. Τό ‘­δε­σε κόμ­πο πὼς ἐ­κεῖ τὴν πε­ρι­μέ­νει ἡ ἀ­γά­πη της. Ὅ­λη τὴ μέ­ρα τρα­γού­δα­γε στὸ ρυθ­μὸ μο­τί­βων λα­ϊ­κῶν τρα­γου­δι­ῶν, “Βουρ­γά­ρε μου, Βουρ­γά­ρε μου».»

      Στὸ τη­λέ­φω­νο πλέ­ον, στὴ γει­το­νιὰ καὶ στοὺς πε­ρα­στι­κούς, ἄλ­λο δὲν εἶ­χε στὸ στό­μα ἀ­π’ τὸ «Βουρ­γά­ρε μου».

      Ἦρ­θε ἡ πο­λυ­πό­θη­τη ὥ­ρα. Ἡ μά­να της στὸ τα­ξί­δι ἔ­τρε­με ὁ­λό­κορ­μη. Δὲν τὴ βα­στοῦ­σε πλέ­ον.

      Μὲ τὸ ποὺ πά­τη­σαν πό­δι, ἄρ­χι­σε νὰ δεί­χνει ξε­φω­νί­ζον­τας. «Αὐ­τόν, Αὐ­τόν.»

      Προ­σπά­θη­σε νὰ ξε­φύ­γει λέ­γον­τάς της πὼς «ἐ­δῶ δὲν γί­νε­ται ἀ­μέ­σως, εἶ­ναι ἄλ­λο σύ­στη­μα, πρέ­πει νὰ πᾶ­με στὸ κρά­τος νὰ συμ­φω­νή­σου­με».

      Μὲ τὸ ζό­ρι τὴν ἔ­φε­ρε πί­σω, μὲ τὴν ὑ­πό­σχε­ση πὼς μί­λη­σε αὐ­τὴ γιὰ κά­ποι­ον ποὺ τῆς ἄ­ρε­σε, τὰ συμ­φώ­νη­σαν καὶ μό­λις βγεῖ τὸ δι­α­βα­τή­ριό του θά ‘ρ­θει στὴν Ἑλ­λά­δα.

      Πά­λι τὸ ἴ­διο βι­ο­λί. Πα­ρά­φρα­ζε συ­νέ­χεια λα­ϊ­κὰ τρα­γού­δια:

Ἱ­στο­ρί­α μου, ἁ­μαρ­τί­α μου

Βουρ­γα­ρι­κὴ λα­τρεί­α μου

σὲ βλέ­πω στ’ ὄ­νει­ρό μου

καὶ κλά­νω ἀ­π’ τὸν κα­η­μό μου.

      Ἔ­πλε­νε ἄ­τσα­λα τὸ σπί­τι νά ‘­ναι εὐ­πα­ρου­σί­α­στο, ἀ­γό­ρα­σε καλ­λυν­τι­κὰ καὶ παι­δευ­ό­ταν στὸν κα­θρέ­φτη.

      Πέρ­να­γε ὁ και­ρὸς καὶ σι­γὰ σι­γὰ ἀ­φέ­θη­κε. Οὔ­τε μί­λα­γε, οὔ­τε κου­νιό­ταν ἀ­π’ τὸ κρε­βά­τι. Γέ­μι­σε ἡ μά­να της γλυ­κὲς προσ­δο­κί­ες, «Θε­έ μου, νά ΄με­νε πάν­τα ἔ­τσι».

      Ὥ­σπου ἕ­να βρά­δυ μπαί­νει ὁ­λό­γυ­μνη στὸ δω­μά­τιό της, μὲ τὰ χέ­ρια πά­νω στὸ μου­νί.

      «Ποῦ ‘­ν’ τος, μω­ρὴ που­τά­να, ὁ Βούρ­γα­ρος; Τί νὰ τὸ κά­νω ἐ­γὼ ἐ­τοῦ­το;»

      Ἀ­λα­φι­ά­στη­κε, τρό­μα­ξε, τῆς ἀ­νέ­βη­κε τὸ αἷ­μα στὸ κε­φά­λι.

      «Ποι­όν γαμ­πρὸ πε­ρι­μέ­νεις, δαί­μο­να; Ποι­όν, σα­τα­νά; Τί νὰ τὸν κά­νεις τὸ γαμ­πρό; Νὰ σὲ λού­ζει; Νὰ σὲ τα­ΐζει; Γιὰ νὰ σοῦ φο­ρά­ει τὸ βρα­κί; Οἱ ἄν­τρες τὸ κα­τε­βά­ζουν τὸ βρα­κί, τέ­ρας, δὲν τὸ ἀ­νε­βά­ζουν πο­τέ. Ὅ­πως ἐ­κεῖ­νο τὸ χτῆ­νος ποὺ σ’ ἔ­σπει­ρε καὶ ἐ­ξα­φα­νί­στη­κε, μω­ρ’, κα­λὰ ἔ­κα­νε ἔ­κτρω­μα, κα­λὰ ἔ­κα­νε, ποὺ νὰ τὸν βροῦν, Πα­να­γί­α μου, μὲ τὴ γλώσ­σα δαγ­κα­μέ­νη, νὰ τοῦ γι­ο­μί­σει τὸ στό­μα σκου­λή­κια στὰ ζῶν­τα. Μοῦ μαύ­ρι­σες τὴ ζω­ή. Ἀ­νά­σα, μω­ρή. Μιὰ ἀ­νά­σα κι ἄς πε­θά­νω. Πῶς εἶ­ναι ἡ ἀ­νά­σα, μω­ρή; Εἶ­σαι ἄρ­ρω­στη. Ἄ­λω­τη.»

      Δὲν μπο­ροῦ­σε νὰ μι­λή­σει πλέ­ον, ἔ­πα­θε σπα­σμοὺς κι ἔ­βγα­ζε κά­τι ἤ­χους σὰν χλί­ου χλί­ου.

      «Ἀ­νά­πη­λο, χλί­ου χλί­ου. Λε­λο­κο­μεῖ­ο, χλί­ου χλί­ου.»

      «Ἄ, ὥ­στε μέ­σα στὸ μυ­α­λου­δά­κι σου τὸν ἔ­χεις. Θὰ σοῦ δεί­ξω ἐ­γώ», τῆς κά­νει μὲ ζα­χα­ρω­μέ­νη φω­νού­λα.

      Βγῆ­κε καὶ γύ­ρι­σε κρα­τών­τας ἕ­να χον­τρὸ μπου­κά­λι γε­μά­το λά­δι κι ἄρ­χι­σε νὰ τὴ χτυ­πά­ει στὸ κε­φά­λι. Τὸ μπου­κά­λι ἔ­σπα­σε, μὰ συ­νέ­χι­ζε νὰ τὴ λι­α­νί­ζει πολ­λὴ ὥ­ρα μὲ τὸ ὑ­πό­λοι­πο κομ­μά­τι, μέ­χρι ποὺ τῆς ἔ­κα­νε τὸ πρό­σω­πο ἄ­μορ­φο.

      Τῆς σκέ­πα­σε κα­τό­πιν τὰ πό­δια νὰ μὴν κρυ­ώ­νει, ἔ­κα­τσε δί­πλα της, ἔ­χω­σε τὰ λι­γδι­α­σμέ­να δά­χτυ­λα στὰ πολ­τοποι­η­μέ­να μέ­ρη τοῦ κρα­νί­ου κι ἔ­ψα­χνε στὸ μυα­λό. Ὅ­ταν ἔ­βρι­σκε κα­νέ­να κομ­μά­τι τοῦ Βούλ­γα­ρου τὸ μα­σοῦ­σε, μούν­τζω­νε τὴ μά­να της καὶ τὴν ἔ­λε­γε που­τά­να καὶ ψεύ­τρα.

 

  

Πηγή : Ἕνα παιδὶ ἀπ’ τὴ Θεσσαλονίκη, διηγήματα, Ἐκδ. Κέδρος, Ἀθήνα, 1989.

 

Σωτήρης Δημητρίου (Πόβλα Θεσπρωτίας, 1955) Πεζογράφος. Πρῶτο του βιβλίο Ψηλαφίσεις, ποιήματα (1985), τελευταῖο του βιβλίο Σὰν τὸ λίγο τὸ νερό, μυθιστόρημα (2010).